Moodiness

I'm supposed to be studying right now, but I'm not.
Not much is going on in the life of a Laura, mostly I'm being silly and fickle. And perhaps I identify a little too well with those angst-y teens. Which is silly in itself. I realize that there will always be some crazy problem for me to tackle, even if I don't actually name it out loud. But sometimes it hurts to look at other people and see how well they appear to be doing. It makes me feel like I've missed the last "maturity train" that rolled through. It's silly, yes, but sometimes it makes me sad to see how I'm lagging behind on life. I won't graduate on time, I'm not entirely sure what I'm planning on doing with myself, and I have a pretty good idea of who I am, but sometimes I'm scared to let myself be me. What kind of person is afraid to let go and just be who they are?
I think I'm going to work on that whole studying thing now...

Insomnia

Here I am again, I can't sleep. Strange thoughts have been going through my head; I have a strange desire to find out about people that I know longer associate with. Although the desire is not so strange because I've had a couple of dreams about them, in Walmart of all places, I guess you could say it's a recurring dream even though it's not exactly the same. But I wonder why my subconscious has been feeling the need to think about them. And now after these dreams, I want to sate my curiosity.
Sometimes I wonder how things might be if a had made different decisions in my past, but I am happy, so it's not like I wonder if I could be happier now, just where would I be?

I received my yarn for "Hat Attack!" and am waiting for my needles to arrive. I've been spending so much money lately, on knitting, and jewelry supplies, it makes me wonder when I'll actually save my paycheck so that I can actually pay off my credit card. I've already decided that I can't "pimp my bed" until after I pay it off. It's silly to spend money when I need to take care of other important things first.

Looky here!

Here I am world! Look at me, look at me!!
Not really. I'm really just doing my best to avoid cleaning. And laundry too. My room should be condemned. But it's just too big of a mess for me to want to start fixing it.
I've also thrown all of my gross yucky acrylic yarn on the floor and out of my yarn basket, I have a strong urge to knit it all away and give the results of my knitting to my poor friends. Some of them might end up with a different hat for every day of the week. That would be slightly amusing. Actually, I think that that would be very amusing.
I finally have a job, at Walmart, but it's kind of boring. They have way too many people working in my department. I can only hope that they'll train me to be a cashier or something so that I'll have more to do instead of walking around and pretending to straighten out shelves that are already straight.
The thought of finally getting a paycheck has me window-shopping on the internet and lusting after new yarn and knit/purl's sock club too. But I've already decided that I'm going to pimp my bed, haha, with a fourth feather pillow, new sheets, a down comforter, and this crazy twister duvet cover... now if only I could find someone I would want to play Twister with on my bed...